The first time I met Melissa was country dancing in Pleasant Grove, Utah. We were standing next to each other by the fan cooling off. I danced with Melissa that night and was impressed with her skill in dancing. As I had taken classes and was on a team in college, I knew she had danced before as well. I remember complimenting her on her dancing. We danced that night and then again each time we met there. I will never forget how much enjoyment we found, not only dancing, but especially dancing with each other. I wanted to get to know her better and thanks to her roommate Hala that opportunity finally presented itself.
Melissa filled my life with happiness and joy. She would continually leave me little notes, telling me how much she loved me or complimenting me on something she had observed or wanted me to know she treasured about me. I was truly content in our love and in my life.
When we discovered that Melissa had cancer, I was shocked. Melissa, who had always eaten so carefully and right. Melissa, who was always conscious of her health. Melissa, who just a couple years earlier was the model of health. How could this be? I searched night after night for the best clinics and care for her. I studied all I could find on lung cancer, I prayed continually and was comforted again and again. Both Melissa and I felt from the very beginning that it was going to be all right. We didn’t know exactly what all right meant yet, but we knew we were in the care of a loving Father in Heaven and we were okay with whatever it was he had in store for us, as difficult as it might be.
I am forever grateful for all that Melissa has brought into my life. Not only my beautiful children, that I treasure even more than my own life, but a companionship, a friendship, and a love that transcends time. I love her with all my heart, and always will. I miss her beautiful smile, I miss her incredible eyes that reflected to me what she felt. I miss her voice and singing to her. I miss her wisdom and council. I miss her Christ-like love and forgiveness. Melissa forever saw the best in everyone around her. She was always willing to give someone the benefit of the doubt. She saw the good in everyone and anyone. I miss her goodness. She always will be my hero, my example, my treasured friend, my confidant, my sweetheart, and my love.
I miss you MY Melissa. There will always be a part of my heart that only you can fill. I long to hold you in my arms once again and will never be completely whole without you. When we again meet on high, only then will I be home, for without you it could never be home.
I love you.
Samuel
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